I had the most badworstmiserablesadregretfulSAD day of my entire life.
Noting have been more worst than that. Sheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeesh,

Allah loves him more than we do i guess.Why must he leave me at such a young age.I still need him by my side.Why must he go so fast. Without a sign at all.BUT WHY??! Why must he go so fast? Sheeeeeeeeeeeeesh , i got nothing else to say. I HATE this week I freaking hate this week. I HATE THIS WEEK SO BLOODY MUCH!!!!!!! Urghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!~I guess i would not be me anymore :/ I would never ever be me again. IDK why.I don't even feel like living in this world ever again. I don't even feel like going to anywhere.I don't even feel like going to school anymore! I don't even feel like doing anything other than just sitting in my room and just stare into space. I cry to sleep every single day. No one else would understand my feelings. NO ONE!Why must life be so unfair!! I hate my life right now. -.-My cousins,uncle and aunts have been the one keeping me alive.They were all ohh so caring towards me. My friends; Amanda, Alisa, Reshawn, Khoirul, Azlizah, Ting yan and much more. Teachers too.Thanks for the care.I really aprreciate it.But like wht Ms tan said nothing ppl say to me would make me feel better.sheeesh.If you dont get wht i'm talking about nvm.But don't come to me asking wht happen. I hate to answer tht ques the most. And if you know you keep it to yourself , Please.There's one JERK who dont know how to keep things to himself.-_______- bler aku terigt die i feel like KILLING him!!Somehow i still cant accept the fact wht had happen to me. I don't believe this. I hope I'm in a dream. But no I'm not.How i wish everything tht i'm facing now is a dream. Then somebody would come waking me up. Then evrything get bck to normal. OR OR how i wish i could reverse time. Then i can see the symptoms. But hell , nothing of such happen in REALITY. This is reality and nothing i can do to bring the dead alive. And how i wish i can bring fairy tales into reality.Whereby the Princess's tears fall at dead prince and the prince come to live again.

Thanks friends for whtever you guys have done.I appreciate it like TONS.

But i hate to say this. I feel like no one cares about me anymore.I thought i had the bestest friends in the world but no. You guys seems like not to care about me anymore. It seems like i've not existed in your life.No one understands how i feel right now,It's hard to describe.But where is everyone when i needed them the most.Where is evryone?! I feel so sad , not even a single one ask me how i am feeling today or whtever.Sheeeeesh , myb they forgoten about me.Myb they forget tht i even exist.I dont have the mood to go to school ever again.I just feel like dying! When you all came to visit wht did you guys talked about?talked about the funny stuff tht i dont even understand cause i wasn't even there.I feel so left out from the world.I feel so life less. This is the time where i need my friends the most but all of them is no where to be found.When i msg-edno one repkied.I know now i'm not equal with evryone in school.cause i no longer have a father.Which everyone in school have.Sheeeeeeeeeeeeeesh. I cant explain how i feel into words anymore.I rather keep evrything o myself than to tell anyone.Cause i dont trust anyone at this moment.For all you knw the person who you trust the most suddenly gone missing or ignoring you. Even your bestfriends is not replying or wht so ever , reply with cold msges.I feel so not needed anymore.I feel like vanishing into thin airs.Why is evrything happening to me at once?Or is it tht i'm just paranoid?Seriously , i will never ever taken into promises anymore. Myb i'm just paranoid,paranoid,paranoid.But i can feel.Myb really my freinds is ignoring me cause i dont ahve wht they have.

I just feel like crying and crying.But i guess my tears have dried up cause i cant even cry anymore.

I miss my friends like tons :/ But i dont know whether they still remember me.Sheeeeeeeeeesh. ):

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